Determination

Whenever I am stressed, scared, anxious....I tend to point my nose toward something delicious to eat. This ends up in an overboard situation that I soon regret.

Since I've already been down the food route today, I'm focusing on things that keep my mind busy.

I'm looking at photographs for inspiration for what I would like my future home to look like. The home I don't have in the city I dreamed up.

The perfect lived in spaces...

Photo: Pinterest

A colorful living room with a mountain of books cluttering up shelves...

A bathroom I want to spend time in for "me time", not just when I need it...

A bedroom with a balance of cozy bedding and a reading nook...

A kitchen where comfort food can be prepared that opens up to my perfect living room...

I envision Sunday dinners with the family, movie night with the kids and their friends, baseball and beer, football and snacks, family and friends dropping by without notice, and endless nights of chatter with the people I love.

I see people breaking into song and dance to the music that plays while meals are conjured up and maybe some dust on the wood floors that I put off cleaning to spend quality time with others. 

I want folks to crave the idea of having fun in my home. People who left but can't wait to return.

As I sit here waiting for the phone to ring or chime with a text of news for the immediate future, I open my heart up to love and determination.

Love for all and determination for myself.

Because I am determined to live this life as fully as ever.