Self Tweaking

Last week, I decided to do something I never thought I'd do. I went ahead and adjusted my medication dose myself. The day after I was thrown into full blown hypomanic bliss! It lasted for several days and today, 6 days later, I'm still on the up.

I had to leave a message for my doctor to get a refill today. In that message I had to admit what I did.

O_o

More often than not, my refills get called in without any communication other than the message I initially leave. I'm hoping for more of the same today.

Like any other Bipolar person, I sit here and wait for the fall to happen. What goes up and all that shit.

I don't care because in this moment, I'm level.

So HA!

Obviously, I don't advise doing what I did in any way.

I honestly have always shunned the idea until I actually did it. That an illegal drug use for the sport of self-medication. And no, my stance hasn't changed on that.

Today is a good day.

That's all I care about in the now.

 

Day Twenty-Six