Working WITH a Drug vs Working AGAINST it

It has been four nights since I started my new medication dose in the non-XR version. I'm glad I started it over the weekend. For two nights straight, I slept for twelve hours or more apiece. I was a little nervous when I took it on Sunday night because I thought it was going to be really hard to wake up for work on Monday. I did snooze the alarm a bit more than usual, but once I was up and moving, I was okay. And so the rest is history.

I've been taking the Seroquel at 10pm every night. It definitely isn't knocking me on my ass as I expected it to. I discovered today that I need to take it one to two hours before bedtime to give it enough time to kick in. So tonight I'll experiment with that.

I'm starting to feel better. Clearer. Less agitated.

I was able to go grocery shopping last Saturday without the want of stabbing someone to death with a coupon (trust me, I could pull that shit off). On Sunday, I cooked and baked and even vacuumed (it wasn't a "cleaning" day). Monday was another slow day at work but I wasn't as irritated as I have been.

I'm not letting down my guard just yet. I still have flutters of anxiety swimming inside of me throughout the day. I'm just able to handle it better than in the past.

One day at a time is too grand. One hour at a time is where it's at. At least I've graduated from minute to minute.