I'll take "Anti-psychotics for $500" Alex!

It had been two months since I stepped foot inside Dr. M's office.

"So...How are you doing?"

"I feel dead inside."

"Can you explain that?"

"The depression is back, I'm angry all the time and I am the most antisocial person ever! Having to hold this conversation with you, to tell you how I am, is making my skin crawl." 

He nodded his head. He didn't look for further explanation.

"What would you like to do?"

"I'll take the Seroquel you've been pushing on me for months now, thank you."

And that's how my appointment went. The appointment I wasn't supposed to have until August 1st, but after I called asking for drug samples, he asked me to come in right away. I knew I wasn't going to be able to wait this one out.

I'm starting on the lowest dose, 50mg, because I'm sensitive to these drugs. The side effects tend to hit me fast and hard.

In the past, when I would start taking a new drug, I was already on another and so the transition was easier. On the flip-side, I'm on nothing now so if there's an issue after I start Seroquel, I'll know what it is.

I've been so scared of this drug because of what other people said about it. By now, you'd think I would know better. Everyone reacts differently.

Now it's time to finally find out for myself.