Weaning update #6? I'm losing count.

"We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey."

Kenji Miyazawa

My head has been swirling so much this past week.

I went back and read my journal from when I was hospitalized for ECT treatments. It made the swirling go a little faster. I was going to post a snippet or two but decided it wouldn't be a good idea.

How's the weaning? It's okay. I'm in my final week of getting off the Lithium. That's not to say I've been doing okay the whole time. The tears still fall, intrusive thoughts invade and I push away the unwanted. Well, as much as I am able.

A big weekend is ahead. My middle son turns 13 on Sunday. This means two teens in my household. It has already been difficult but this just makes it official. Monday is my birthday. I don't care much for my birthday but I'll be 35 whether I celebrate it or not.

We have a weekend of eating out, bbq'ing at home and playing outside ahead. A walk on the beach after the sun goes down would be lovely. I hope the Florida weather cooperates and offers some much needed shade.

Happy Memorial Day weekend! Thank you all for being there for me.

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