Weaning update #1

I feel outside of myself, but so far I can handle it.

I ended up leaving my office yesterday at 1pm because I could hardly hold my head up. I work in a place where the people have been employed for over twenty years. They're old school. I have one person who I can run to, slam the door and bawl my eyes out to and he gets it. Or at least, he pretends really well to get it. I'm forever grateful to him for that.

There was a huge storm while I was driving home but when I finally made it, my husband pointed to the bed and I listened. I was asleep, on and off, until my alarm went off this morning.

Because I went cold turkey off the newest drug I'm already feeling the effects. Cold sweats, shakes, chills, headaches, roller coaster emotions, exhaustion. Sleep helps but sometimes when I close my eyes, the world spins faster.

The point here is that I'm surviving and fighting through it. Your support means the world to me.