A few weeks ago when I called my psychiatrist about the blood results for my lithium level, I got a call from my primary care doctor's office. Since I was fasting, I went ahead and had a full work-up done. The results were in.
Once I heard "pre-diabetic" everything else sounded like Charlie Brown's teacher. I heard speaking but it was in the distance and being muffled by static.
How could I have let myself get to this stage? Oh that's right...for three years I was dealing with postpartum depression warping into Bipolar 2. Fun times.
During my last pregnancy, I only gained 30-35 pounds and I was in great shape prior. During my pregnancy I did yoga. I walked. I looked pretty good.
I popped him out right on time, rather quickly, and lost a good 20 pounds in a hurry. I was nursing so he was gobbling down my milk and I was burning calories like a mofo. Then the depression hit and so did the weight loss. I stopped trying. I honestly didn't care.
I do care now. I want to shed the weight and feel better. Looking good is a bonus.
Within days of receiving that phone call, I cut out complex carbs and when I do eat them, it's in extreme moderation or cooked from a recipe calling for specialty items such as low carb pasta (Dreamfields is amazing!).
Then I started working out again. I'm a Jillian Michaels fan all the way and so I started the 30 Day Shred program again along with yoga. I'm not doing "The Shred" daily (in fact Jillian herself recommends rest days, not to go go go for 30 straight days). On my "off days" I pull out my mat and get my yoga on. You know what? It feels spectacular. 20-30 minutes a day is not a lot to dedicate to this, it's just not!
But....(there has to be a but)...I'm afraid to step on the scale. I want to weigh in once a week but I haven't stepped on the scale since the initial time for my before weight. I know I've lost something because my clothes are loose, but the act of following through scares the shit out of me. 15-20 pounds lost will get me out of the pre-diabetic zone. 35-40 pounds lost will make me feel my best. I'm afraid I can't do it, like I can't keep up or something.
What are you eating? What's your workout plan? When do you workout? I want to know your deepest and darkest secrets....Please share!