Meh...

I've been panicked due to my psychiatrist relocating to his new practice several cities over. At first I was angry and hurt and woe is me.

On Saturday my son and I took a trip to Orlando (to SeaWorld) and on the way, we passed through the city he is moving to. I thought, Oh hell no...this is too far to drive to see a doctor. Because as of last Friday, I thought maybe I could still see him.

I canceled my appointment with him today. I rescheduled for early January. I'm feeling...Meh. I'm stabilized, which is what we were going for. I figured I could save that bit of money since my co-pay is so damn high. I can call him in the interim if I get whacky.

This is the first time in a long time I went a whole month without suicidal ideations. That's pretty huge.

So for now. I'm stabilized. Yeah....