Tuesday, December 20, 2011

I'm Slipping

I looked everywhere on the internet yesterday to see how long Tegretol was going to stay in my system. I finally broke down and left a message for my doctor this morning.

Today I can feel myself slipping.

I don't care about anything and the tears are in my eyes without reason.

I just want to give up. The fight is too hard.

I know there are other medications out there I haven't tried but I'm on a budget. I was trying to stay within range of my $10 co-pay but it seems I've exhausted all of those. I don't qualify for assistance because I have insurance.

My psychiatrist seems to get frustrated with me because I won't try drugs out of my price range. He figures, if they work, we'll figure it out then. There's nothing to figure out. I'm not going to take something I can't afford. I can't.

So here we go again. Round and round she goes. Russian roulette anyone?
Posted by Pamela Gold at 9:02 AM
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2 comments:

  1. The one drug (abilify) that helps me is $30/month. I'd love to go off of it because of the cost, but it just helps so much. I'm afraid to go off of it, but it is so expensive :(

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  2. thinking of you, sending endurance and peace and strength, and the knowledge that you are loved whether youre stable or unstable. *HUG* hoping things even out again soon.

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