Sunday, June 28, 2009
I'm glad I started this blog. I can't wait to have a collection of stories for everyone to relive.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
A hard ass - - at one time!
Even if something was bothering me, I kept that exterior wall so built up, you would never know it! Times have changed. I wish I could have freeze framed what once was. I hate being this pile of mush.
My vision is blurry. Why can't it be as easy as turning the lens of a camera for clearer focus? My identity is lost. I'm a person I don't think I would want to know, if of course I wasn't me. Not right now anyway.
Thank goodness for my husband and children. I was cooking one of our family favorites last night, enchiladas. Eric put Xavier down on the ground and made him act like he was walking and talking to me. Whenever he does this, I'm powerless. I melt and I love it. I love him for it. He always knows how to comfort me even when I don't know I need to be comforted.
We're in need of an escape of sorts right now. I envision Eric sleeping soundly in bed, catching up on some much needed rest. My children and I are rolling out of bed and directly dressing up in our swimsuits and flip flops. We're taking a ride to the beach. It's around 8:30am. We walk onto the sand and they're as free as the birds who have migrated to the same spot. Xavier is close to me, in his Moby Wrap, drifting into a sweet slumber. Jerytt and Isaac are chasing the waves, and who am I kidding, trying to knock each other off his feet. It's peaceful and my exterior wall is no longer...
Sunday, June 21, 2009
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What is Postpartum Depression (PPD)?
What is Postpartum Anxiety (PPA)?
What is Postpartum Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (PPOCD)?
What is Postpartum-Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PPTSD)?
What is Postpartum Psychosis (PPP)?
Postpartum Support International
Postpartum Progress Daily Hope
Postpartum Support Groups (U.S. and Canada)
Women's Mental Health Treatment Programs & Specialists (U.S., Canada, Australia)
My Postpartum Voice
Depression During and After Pregnancy
Postpartum Support for Fathers
The Online Postpartum Support Group
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
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Once a baby is produced, grows inside of you for what seems like forever, is born into the world... the "for me" moments are few and extremely far between. I'm not trying to be selfish, I'm simply looking for a little self healing...
I have three sons. Jerytt will be 15 come October. 15! Am I old enough to be the mother to a freshman in high school? Well yeah, I had him when I was 17. A mistake, no way! We have our challenges but I wouldn't trade him.
Isaac just turned 10. He's my little hard headed prince. Isaac can be raging mad (probably something Jerytt did) but then his sweetness overpowers the situation and all is well in the world once again. Jerytt and Isaac - - best friends for life! Sometimes they act like mortal enemies but cross one of them, and the other will have you begging for mercy!
Xavier is about to turn 4 months old. He's supposed to have crossed that threshold of being out of this so-called 4th trimester and into the livelihood of infant status. We're on the cusp of that right now. My husband refers to him as the King. Whatever the King wants, the King shall get.
Is it awful of me to enjoy having a baby at this stage in my life more now than when I was only 17 years old with Jerytt... or when I was 21 with Isaac? Is that selfish to say outloud (or to type)? Well I do enjoy it more now. I enjoy the 4am feedings (which usually also include a ritualistic diaper exlosion), I let him nurse until his heart is content. I love rolling over in the morning to the sun sized smile on his face, chubby cheeks spread wide. I'm a more patient person with this one.
I used to be so scheduled. Laundry on Sunday, deep clean the house every other weekend (now I'm lucky to run the vacuum), no going out after work... a total home body. Just me and my boys, husband too of course (our 3rd wedding anniversary is on the rise, this marks 12 years together total). This small King is taking over our existence and I'm completely and totally fascinated by it. By him. So what's a few months lost of the usual day to day occurrences? Things will get finished (or started) in due time. I have to constantly remind myself of this.
I'm back at work now, going on about a month give or take. Eric (my husband) is home with all the boys for the Summer. He's a student. I'm the bread winner. Once he's finished and we pay off some debt, the roles will reverse. I'm sincerely jealous that he is home and I am not. It's putting me into a state of depression, I've never felt like this before. I didn't even know it was possible to develop postpartum depression for up to a year after giving birth! It used to only hit me during the week while I was at work. Now it's creeping in on Saturday night and Sunday morning over coffee, it's invading my sacred space. I thought the writing would assist with keeping it at bay. I'll soon find out.
I hope to mark the page with more positives than negatives. Soon. Right now I have to deal with the matter at hand. I love my kids. I love my husband. I love our new (rental) home. It's time to be happy and wash away these thoughts in my head.
In the words of Captain Grace:
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Monday, June 15, 2009
There are three types of Bipolar Disorder.
- Bipolar Type I
- Bipolar Type II
- Rapid-Cycling Form
Bipolar Type II is similar to Type I, however, the manic phases aren't as serious or destructive. The manic phases are much milder and are also referred to as hypomania (see below). Usually, fewer manic episodes occur with Bipolar Type II.
Rapid-Cycling Form is the third type of Bipolar Disorder. With this type, individuals experience four or more episodes of depression and/or mania within a year. These people may be healthy between episodes of depression and mania, or go directly from depression to a manic episode.
Let's explore the disorder in further detail.
There are two completely different sets of signs and symptoms classified as depression and mania.
Signs and Symptoms of Depression:
- Sadness and anxiety
- Loss of energy
- Feelings of guilt, hopelessness, or worthlessness
- Loss of interest or enjoyment from things that were once pleasurable
- Difficulty concentrating
- Uncontrollable crying
- Difficulty making decisions
- Increased need for sleep
- Change in appetite causing weight loss or gain
- Thoughts of death or suicide
- Attempting suicide
- Excessive happiness, hopefulness, and excitement
- Sudden changes from being joyful to being irritable, angry, and hostile
- Restlessness, increased energy, and less need for sleep
- Rapid talk, talkativeness
- Racing thoughts
- High sex drive
- Tendency to make grand and unattainable plans
- Tendency to show poor judgment, such as deciding to quit a job
- Inflated self-esteem or grandiosity — unrealistic beliefs in one’s ability, intelligence, and powers; may be delusional
- Increased reckless behaviors (such as lavish spending sprees, impulsive sexual indiscretions, abuse of alcohol or drugs, or ill-advised business decisions)
- Periods of time with an especially energetic mood
- Feeling more self-confident than normal
- Being very talkative or speaking faster than usual
- Feeling hyper
- Having a hard time concentrating
- Being more irritable or angry
- Needing less sleep than normal
- Having more interest in sex
- Uncharacteristic spending sprees
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